*Yawn*
PENATNYAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaa..
i am E.X.H.A.U.S.T.E.D
Besides the fact that halil n ı only get to eat only by 8.30pm (we r fasting today)..and the fact that from morning till just now i was busy doing the total tidying up n cleaning of my home..and yet...there r loads more to do...things to be wiped..things to collect..things to ..clean..etc..etc..etc..and the winter clothing needs to go to the storage closet again..spring n summer clothing to be taken out..all need to be ironed....i havent done that.. i really do mean there r loads more to be done...HELP.
I have been wanting to do these things for ages..kept postponing it..other things to do..bla bla bla.. now that the date for the guests coming to our house is getting nearer.....the pressure to keep the house at least presentable is now on me... this apt cannot be tidy..within 5 minutes..again the same thing..the same mess..i just dunno what to do...*sigh*..i wish i am a tidy person..i wish our family can keep everything tidy and clean all the time..but it is just an impossible hope..
Anyway, we had a phone call from halim an hour ago...he told us to look at the anafen okulları (anafen schools) advertisement in the newspaper. There it was..among the anafen primary schools..one was with the name...*Anafen Sebahattin Zaim İÖ (İlkÖgretim)* (Anafen Sebahattin Zaim Primary school*..yup..they named that school using my dad in law's name n the funny thing of all..no one in the Zaim family knows about it until halim pointed that out..As far as i remember, there is one high school named after him as well..and there is a street too named after him..
This got me thinking.. i mean baba (my dad in law) has done a lot in his life..he has achieved so much..both locally and internationally..and he is leaving and will leave a mark even after he is gone to rahmatullah...he will not die as a guy unremembered. He has the respect of many people..
And me.. who am i? have i done anything worth remembering in my life? I am not a good daughter..nor am i a good mother to my kids..or a good sister to my siblings..as a wife? i dont think i am a good one either....careerwise..except for cooking n cleaning (though my house is never tidy enough)..i have no such thing as a career..i mean the traces of my living will not be evident..my contributions to life is almost nill..Once gone..will i be forgotten? Hopefully not..at least not by love ones...
i was just thinking... wouldnt it be funny if we send baddin to anafen sebahattin zaim ilkögretim...baddin can proudly claim..*this is my school* :0) ..of course that wont be happening..baddin will go to school where hatice is..
time to sleep..i think i mumble nonsensicle now..forgive my mumbling.. another long day of household chores tomorrow..wish me luck!!
P.s- The moving writing at the sidebar (marquee) was accomplished with the help of Queen of the House..
Many many thanks Queen!
I have been wanting to do these things for ages..kept postponing it..other things to do..bla bla bla.. now that the date for the guests coming to our house is getting nearer.....the pressure to keep the house at least presentable is now on me... this apt cannot be tidy..within 5 minutes..again the same thing..the same mess..i just dunno what to do...*sigh*..i wish i am a tidy person..i wish our family can keep everything tidy and clean all the time..but it is just an impossible hope..
Anyway, we had a phone call from halim an hour ago...he told us to look at the anafen okulları (anafen schools) advertisement in the newspaper. There it was..among the anafen primary schools..one was with the name...*Anafen Sebahattin Zaim İÖ (İlkÖgretim)* (Anafen Sebahattin Zaim Primary school*..yup..they named that school using my dad in law's name n the funny thing of all..no one in the Zaim family knows about it until halim pointed that out..As far as i remember, there is one high school named after him as well..and there is a street too named after him..
This got me thinking.. i mean baba (my dad in law) has done a lot in his life..he has achieved so much..both locally and internationally..and he is leaving and will leave a mark even after he is gone to rahmatullah...he will not die as a guy unremembered. He has the respect of many people..
And me.. who am i? have i done anything worth remembering in my life? I am not a good daughter..nor am i a good mother to my kids..or a good sister to my siblings..as a wife? i dont think i am a good one either....careerwise..except for cooking n cleaning (though my house is never tidy enough)..i have no such thing as a career..i mean the traces of my living will not be evident..my contributions to life is almost nill..Once gone..will i be forgotten? Hopefully not..at least not by love ones...
i was just thinking... wouldnt it be funny if we send baddin to anafen sebahattin zaim ilkögretim...baddin can proudly claim..*this is my school* :0) ..of course that wont be happening..baddin will go to school where hatice is..
time to sleep..i think i mumble nonsensicle now..forgive my mumbling.. another long day of household chores tomorrow..wish me luck!!
P.s- The moving writing at the sidebar (marquee) was accomplished with the help of Queen of the House..
Many many thanks Queen!
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10 Comments:
Of course you have left something for people to remember you by. Each day when you look at your home, look at your beautiful children, that is your legacy. That is your mark on this earth and you should be very proud. Your career is your family and look what a great job you are doing. No one with children that age can keep a tidy house (not without help anyway). So don't get so down on yourself. I to think the same way sometimes. But the children will get older and the house will be easier to keep tidier. It will get better.
Wow ... who was your FIL? Must have been someone important. It would be the absolute cool thing for your son to attend that school (or maybe not) ... jadi VIP!! :)
I am just wondering ... how long have you been in Turkey? It would be a nice place to visit ... someday, someday.
monica
thanks for the vote of confidence..:0)
Queen in the house
my FIL is still alive.he is a retired academician..kalau u type Sabahattin Zaim kat google ker..nampak la list dia..tapi gamaknya dlm turkish kot heheheh
i have been here since september 1999.Turkey is a nice country to visit..datang la..peninggalan zaman osmaniah..etc..etc..masjid di cun..our doors will always welcome u :0)
Hi,
I came across ur blog thru mama sarah's. I like reading your posts. Very interesting. You know, everybody feels like that once in a while but you are trying your best. That is what counts! Your children will cherish you for all the things that you do for them, even the smallest deed. I have two toddlers and I know how you feel but just take a breather and look at them. It is all worth it and I believe that things will be much easier when they are a bit older. Take care.:)
simah, come to think about it, cinderella has a happy ending. so while doign housework tu, look forward to the reward inspired by cinderella :)
lah
heheh i know how u feel..u dua orang tukang sepah..rumah i 3 orang!!..or should i say 4?? i pon bukan jenis tidy sangat pon..dengan rumah kecik..barang banyak (esp mainan budak budak tu..pen..papers..etc..etc.) my house boleh jadi rumah hantu!! heheheheh
sherin almashor
thanks for visiting my blog..yeah..ur right of course..only at times u just wanna scream sebab tak der chance rumah nak kemas :0)
mama rock
but i've got my prince charming already..alhamdulillah..:0) gamaknya my reward for these chores ..nak kena buat demand kat boss kot hehehhhehe my list of demands is long :0)
hehe.selagi kita ada anak kecil yg bergelar kanak2 ribena, selagi tulah rumah susah nak kemas.
saya selalu cakap ngan anak2 yg besar ni, Husna n Aiman, kalua ummi mati selalu sedekah fatihah. tp abih sebut jer ayat tu, Husna terutamanya akan sedih, kekadang tu menangis. sbb dia dah faham makna mati..
saya harap wlwpun saya hanyalah surirumah tangga sepenuh masa yg rmh pun bukannya dpt 100% kemas, masak pun tak pandai...ada masa termasin, ada masa mmg tak sedap langsung, tp saya harap bila saya dah mati, suami saya masih mengingati saya dengan menyedekahkan al Fatihah sentiasa. saya kira itulah antara kasihnya yang berpanjangan, tak kiralah dia kawin lagi atau tidak selepas kematian saya :)
saya setuju dengan most of the comments above.
p/s: mama rock sungguh funny.
p/p/s: syikin, why so sedih one?
p/p/p/s: hi sherin!
syikin..
pasal bab masak...cik kak oiii..jangan nak merendah diri..i have seen ur recipe blog..pandaiiiiiiiiinyaaa awak masakkkkkkk..saya yg tak berapa reti..tapi sebagai insan..kita belajar dari kesilapan kan? :0)
husna sensitifnya...ni mesti ikut mama dia..nampaknya sayang betul anak awak kat awak syikin..masyaAllah..
mama sarah..
:0)
betul simah, kita belajar drp kesilapan
to mama sarah, hehe so sedih? tak taulah nape..
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