She is not coming...

News from Malaysia reached me.. there was a mistaken identity..it is not my beloved teacher in Mahsuri who will be coming to my place next coming month.. it is the elder sister of my teacher (who happened to be my younger sister's teacher) with her mom n 2 siblings who will be coming.. Am i sad?..Yes.. u can say that...u see.. i had this plan of nak kutuk my teacher puas puas.. (i speak to her like i speak to a sister..so that is why i always kutuk her..)..but now i cant....Someone i dont know very well ..will be coming ..i will serve them as my cherished guest of course...tetamu membawa rahmat...but deep down (no offence to anyone)...i secretly wish that it is my teacher who would be coming...*sigh*...now i guess i will have to start learning to contain my real not so good manners...and try to be polite as i possibly can...that my dearests is very hard indeed..i am not a person who posses a refined character..i am just that small town girl who grew up in an island..speak what i have in my mind...directly...nothing sensored...my words can sound rough to some...pls pray that i wont seem rude to them...i really do want to be a good host......my dearest teacher...if only u r one of the 4 people coming... :0( .. i need a hug