Still standing

Yup..i have not fallen...fallen into that no reason depression.. i suppose the istanbul heat is catching up on me. And it is not even as hot as Malaysia!! Gee how pampered i have become over these years...

The great recipe to overcome depression for women..

S.H.O.P.P.I.N.G..

Never fail that one *chuckles*..tonite halil, the kids n i went to Carrefour. I needed to buy some things from there..And I knew that Peacocks ( a clothing shop in the carrefour building)is starting the 70% discount sale today..What i didnt know is that every other shop is making crazy discounts as well..If only i had the time to walk around the shops...

End of season sale is always my favourite..Everything is like sooo cheap.I always make it a point to go shopping every end of each season sale.. shopping for what? shopping for who?? I shop mostly for the kids.. like tonite i shop some clothings for next year's summer. We save a lot this way.. Just like tonight, i bought 1 long sleeve sweater, one long sleeve t-shirt, one short sleeve t-shirt n a 2 pack short for baddin ..For hatice i bought her a skirt, a sleeveless t-shirt and a fancy sort of overcoat (Hmm.. i bought 1 material less for hatice, i will have to make it up to her later)..The total price of those things should be around 132YTL but tonite i only paid 58YTL..That is like half price cheaper right? And the best benefit of all the shopping tonite is.. i spent money n therefore i feel much much better now hheheheheh Women huh??

Earlier on in the morning, i brought the kids to the playground. As usual, the 2 cousins (Zeynep n Elo) were there. We went quite late..around 11am..n by 12 noon we had to leave the playground since baddin needed to go for his friday prayer with halil (by 1pm)...a quick bath today for him n lunch took almost one hour..It was really a rush today..n in that rush i kidnapped halil's handphone (it is fixed now) n snapped the kids at the playground...

The kids eating ice cream
(Except elo..she refused the ice cream i bought her)
Who's that girl with the headcover?

Yup! O benim çiçeğim
..The flower of my heart...

Playing the balancing game..
eh eh nak jatuh...
Playing with the sand

*Elo sen baddin sarılamazsınki*
(Elo u cannot hug baddin)
and she did..
(her reverse talk psychology)
hehehI was rushing to the playground this morning.
n look what i ended up wearing on my feet at the playground!!!
hahahahahhahhahahahah

Yes.. Hatice has decided to wear the headcover. She suprised me actually. On the 1st of August, she asked me about me wearing the headcover i.e when i started wearing it..why i wear it etc etc. On the 2nd of august, we were about to go out of the house when she asked me* Anne, baş örtu bana takar mısın?* (Can u put the headcover on me?) I could not believe my ears. I took one of the headcovers that my brother joe sent from Malaysia n put it on her. She now wears her headcover everytime she is going out...Well.. the fact that she is wearing shorts n short sleeve t-shirt with her headcover is another thing of course.. she is still small.. plenty of time to teach her things.... to dress the proper way..

True. I am happy that she is wearing the headcover. But secretly i feared that she is wearing it to please me... to make me happy. That is not the reason to wear a headcover.Thus, today on the way to the playground i asked her the reason of her wearing the headcover. she told me that she wanted to please me. She also said that she wanted to try wearing a headcover. Well.. that is good enough for me.. We chatted some more. I told her that if she is wearing the headcover for me then it would be the wrong reason to wear it.

I told her that she should remember 2 things. In her life, whatever decisions she make, she should make them

1. For herself... not to please other but to please herself.
2. because that decision is the right decision for her

And in everything, i want her to try to enjoy life..to feel the pleasure of what life has to offer..
She said *ok*.. how much she understood... i do not know..but these r the things i always tell her when she is alone..just like i always tell her...that once i am old n she is grown up..if i am still alive.. i do not want any material things from her.. the only things i will ask from them (i tell baddin this as well) r a kiss n a hug..to me they would be much much more worthy than any diamond or gold...and once i die... a fatihah ...

This matter of the headcover, i never push hatice to wear it. I believe in freedom. There is no use in forcing her to do the things she doesnt want to n r not ready for.. how long this wearing the headcover will last, i dunno.. i just hope that she wont have an emotional conflict when she has to take off her headcover to go to school...

And as for baddin? the sister wears the headcover.. he doesnt want to be left behind as well..he wears his cap hehehe

Have a Happy Weekend everybody!!

See u all on wednesday...i will be missing again starting tomorrow night hehehehe..clue: Splashhhhh!!