Have you?

Have you ever feel so nothing that you dont know what you are feeling? I do. I do not know what I feel. Nothing interests me. I do things because I have to. Like a robot, I Do what is necessary.I smile when i need to. But do I smile from the heart? There is this brooding in the heart that awaits the sun to pour down all over it. There is this hole.Alone is all i want to be.Yet, do i really want to be alone? The joy of life is all around. I see it but i cant get into it. Is this depression?Nah..I dont think so. It is just one of those things that come and go. When my Xxx-red day is over, I think i will read Yasin.It always work...